Milestones

This past February I turned 30. It was a really hard birthday for me. I didn't like the idea of being 30. Even now, thirty just seems way older to me than I feel like I am. Adults are thirty, and most of the time I just don't feel like I am an adult.

Having a kid and turning thirty in the same year was a double whammy. After having Olivia I felt completely lost identity wise. I had this baby that needed me so much, and a body that just didnt feel like mine anymore. Now add an age crisis on top of that and, as you can imagine, I was an absolute mess. It was a tough adjustment, but eventually I learned how to feel like "me" while being Olivia's mommy.

I still don't feel like I am thirty.

Now that it's October and I've been 30 for seven (whole) months I understand the wisdom of the saying "You are only as old as you feel".  I feel firmly in my twenties (really the perfect age range).